Eclectic Waters

will not be remembered in years to come - i will wake up and forget what could have been

today would not have made a good wedding day anyways

when i go to bed tonight i will leave the regret and pain in a small pile under my bed and will forget to take it with me when i move -

why cling to the past when there is so much that is coming my way, just around the corner - good things

after eating my cereal and lifting the bowl to my lips to drink the last of the milk

i pulled out my “personal conversations” journal, which is my ‘get naked’ before God book - reminding myself not to hide from the one who already knows me

i wrote and then my mind drifted off - forgetful

when it finally came drifting back upstream i began to talk to him -

I sat there with my Daddy and all the defenses faded into the ground - i was weak before him, and like you said, A. Ellen - he was there

I trust Him - with my love, my life, my relationships. my dreams - my future

and even, with this day that will not last and that will be quickly forgotten…

i am glad memories fade with time -

there are some memories not worth remembering…

Today could have been my wedding day.