Eclectic Waters

Archive for April, 2008

We purchased our tickets and will be leaving tomorrow morning and returning Thursday night.

It’s so good to have family – being able to hug my sister and cry together and just be together during this time is a HUGE blessing.

I look forward to seeing my family in Canada. It will be so good to see them, hug them and just be…

As Terri said, “Remember, you don’t have to be strong Dee…”

“When I meet someone whose lost a loved one, I don’t say anything because what can you say? It’s happened to me twice and so I know there’s nothing to say…”

This conversation between my co-workers was sparked by the loss of my loved one.

My Grandma died this morning. My Mum’s mum.

She died as we all hope to – peacefully while sleeping. We had prayed for this.

It is a blessing because we know she is healed and well – running in heaving – dancing – laughing – while we will bury her frail and bent body next week. I am happy she is free.

I am sad because I love her and I miss her already.

I can’t believe she has passed from this world and the knowledge that she is no longer a phone call or a plane ride away breaks my heart.

My Mum was able to fly down early to spend Grandma’s last day with her – My Dad and us kids are trying to make it down for the funeral next week – but the tickets are expensive and so our hopeful scrambling to put the plans in place…

well, I’m still hoping to be able to go…

Awake

take a shower

make coffee

read the word

John 10 “My sheep hear my voice…”

chat with Rachael as we do our make-up

get my bible, the food for sunday school etc. together

and look forward to:

friends

worship

teaching

an afternoon with my siblings

the beach

later on in the evening:

bible study with women who are strong in their weakness and

honest…

this is my life today and I am blessed.

I dance out of my room to World Wide Message Tribe and off to the day.

I reached out and asked for forgiveness.

He took my words,

shared his heart,

and reaching back asking me for forgiveness.

Healing

is now within reach.

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This is the very abstract rendition of a phone conversation I had last week with me ex-fiance. I knew I needed to call to resolve some things, but I had not idea how he would react or how our conversation would go from there.

It was a gift.

He was kind and affirming and we were both able to ask for forgiveness from each other and to have closure. I had not realized how much I needed that until after we had talked.

Of course I cried, but luckily my wonderful brother was there to hold me and encourage me, and the tears came because of the intense emotion and not sadness.

Healing…