Eclectic Waters

Archive for August, 2008

“It is God which worketh in you

He needs no one,

but when faith is present He works through

anyone.”

in The Knowledge of the Holy pg 36

I want to be one of the people God works through.

Last night I was able to attend a worship night with some of my friends and some of their friends who I had never met before. We sang, shared and prayed. We prayed for a revival in San Diego. I think it is coming – we don’t know when, how or who God will choose to be a part of it – but it is coming.

I want to be ready.

I’ve been journaling more lately, finally taking the time to articulate my inner world and to be honest. I have come face to face with my fears, my need for forgiveness and God’s healing. He is slowly sandblasting away the fear in my life and leaving the rocks of my inner landscape smooth and beautiful under His artist hands; they are so loving.

I am His artpiece and while I do not see the future and feel the edges of anxiety about the next steps – He is in control.

He is in control.

Take my hands God, take my heart –

break me against the rocks that hinder you from speaking to me

clear my vision

open my ears

give understanding to me

that I may know you

and see you

and touch you

and be

t

r a n s

formed into your likeness.

I am yours.

“Sometimes we just need to slow down and grow.” –Lois Wyse

After returning from Cabo where I went for a 10 day mission trip, my parents came into town followed by Lynny’s boyfriend and my best friend and former teacher from the Logos II came to visit.

My journey during this time has included:

-seeing God use my gifts of leadership and administration

-leading the devotional times in Cabo and seeing God’s hand in each person’s life

-God healing my heart to be able to love the people in Cabo even though we were only there for 10 days and I was afraid to love them at first because I knew we were leaving and goodbye’s are so hard when you love the people you are leaving. Half way through the trip, I noticed the doors at my heart keeping my team members and the people of Cabo at a distance. I didn’t know how to open the doors and so I cried out to God – telling Him I couldn’t do it and that I needed Him to open my heart. He did!

-my hunger and desire for God growing to the point where I feel it every day, my relationship with Him is moving away from being a check list of duties I need to perform, but instead I long to be closer to Him and to know Him

-praying with Alison and the stronghold of fear in my life being broken

-finally believing and seeing evidence of the miracles and transformation God wants to do in my life…I used to believe that while he healed others miraculously, that he only changed me slowly over time… but I discovered that His supernatural healing is for me too

-growing in my contentment and appreciation for where I am right now in my job – for who I am and for others

And many other small things -

After all of this I am on informational/ emotional overload and when I read the above quote, it resonated with me. I have been a sponge, soaking up truth and having my mindset and heart transformed. But now it is time to find a quiet place to sit, rest and meditate on all that God has done. A place to sit with Jesus in the stillness, resting in His love, so that all I have learned may sink into the deep places of my heart that remain untapped in the busyness of life.

I am hoping to slow down and grow.