Eclectic Waters

water dripping into my eyes from the hole in the damn above my head

i am not…

this haunts me…

my sister was mad at me and i felt she hated me -

she shook her head,

i’m mad dee, i don’t hate you…

later she came to my room and i swallowed my pride

opened that part of me that is real

to her gaze,

since boarding school - there is a part of me that never fully trusts -

even my family

are you sure you won’t leave me?

I don’t feel good enough - there must be a broken part of me -

are you sure you won’t leave me?

it hurt to tell the truth

she looked at me with love

put her hands on my shoulders

eyes diving into my own

Dee Dee I will never abandon you

i cried

is it true?

oh lie, you wretched beast

lying snaked around my heart

release your choking grip