evening prayer -
I don’t want visions or dreams if I cannot touch you
All I want is you Lord.
Teach me to speak for you alone
Draw me into the silence of your love
The loudness of your power
I need you alone
You’re the culmination where all my desire ends
If only I could touch you
Teach me to see you and love you in the people around me
To feed the needy, to heal the sick to love each being, because you loved them
While they are still sinners, you love them
Teach me
I crave comfort and approval, I mistake it for love
Please teach me to live on the edge of myself
Of my talents
Of all I know
Leaning into the abyss and wind
Believing against all rationality that you are the God
Who fights
Who wins
Who saves
Who heals
Who fathers
I live in perfect peace
I live in the place of my heart
That longs to be yours alone
You are all
All
That is necessary for life and breath,
All
For me.