2014: A year of NEW?
Coffee steam rose from our mugs as we discussed the grief that comes with each new season. Even if the change is good, such as a promotion, a baby or a new friendship, there is something lost.
Sometimes we feel the loss intensely, other times it is subtle.
As I think about 2014, the word that comes to mind is NEW.
A small life is growing inside me. In July 2014 Jonathan and I will welcome our first child into the world. New life.
I’m excited and nervous about becoming a mother and then returning to work 2 and a half months later. New role.
Every day I notice subtle changes in my body as it shifts and makes room for this growing life. New shape.
Writing. Now that I have self-published my first eBook, what project will I work on next? Even though I began the journey of writing in November 2012, this upcoming year will hold new lessons, opportunities and challenges. New journey.
When I think about this season of embracing the new, I am filled with joy and my eyes mist over from the goodness of the opportunities I have been given, but there is a part of me that grieves. Change is difficult and there are things lost in the embracing of the new.
I grieve the loss of extended uninterrupted time with Jon and the loss of my body’s familiarity. Although it’s uncomfortable to grieve and admit the loss, if I do not, my soul will remain small and unable to embrace the new.
Grieving cleanses and heals us, making room for the new.
We cannot keep adding to our lives without letting some things go. This is the heart wrenching part. We release seasons, routines, projects, and sometimes the people we have loved to embrace the new.
A new year can begin only because the old year ends.
What are the NEW things you have coming this year? How will you grieve and celebrate these changes?
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